"She went silent in her fury and her  pain
 
           I missed her tender voice,
 the one that read to me every night
 The voice that comforted me when 
 I was sick
 
          I turned from my sister in a time of crisis    because I was selfish and wanted only her comforting tones
 
    I wanted her to continue as she had been when she was    safe
 
                     One night darkness like a fever swallowed her    up
and all I had was memories
 
Memories and the knowledge that I    had failed her
 
 I had not been there for her as she had been    for me
 
 I walked deep into night without even a flashlight,    searching
 
 I had no idea how to find her and was sure that I'd be    lost, too
 
             I wanted to be as I didn't want to live without her and for years I haven't been    alive"